Fate and Karma?
I don't really believe in karma and fate but today something really sweet happened.
Some total stranger walked up to me today and asked me if I could buy her some food. She had come to Sweden from... belgium... I think she said? And she was bothering me about money so she could provide for her children.
Either way, I said I didn't want to give her money because I didn't know if she would use it for food. But she told me I could buy that food for her.
So I agreed after a while and we went to a grocery store.
I told her to buy food for maximum 150 kr (which is around 17-18 dollars) but nothing more.
So we went inside the shop and she started picking up food. And shampoo. Wtf?
Either way, she took too much and I told her that I couldnt pay for more, so she took a frozen chicken out of the shopping bag and just lay it on the side. I just sighed and took it to the freezer.
Also, if she had 1 year old kids, why didn't she buy ANY baby food at all? She even looked at the candy for a while, but then walked away from it.
Despite her removing her chicken, the shopping bill ended up at 200 kr. And I was like "whaver, it's just 50 kr".
During this time in the store, she started begging for more money and I told her that I wouldn't give her more money than for the food upon where she said "Don't you trust me?". And I was honest and told her I wouldn't know where the money would go, so she could take that food or nothing. She chose the food.
I felt like I did a good deed by helping her, but at the same time I totally felt like she used me.
Either way, she got her food, she thanked me, and we separated ways. Or we walked the same direction to be honest but I walked faster so I walked away from her, lol.
After separating ways with her, I went to a candy store to buy a good-bye-present to my friend who will move to Australia in a few weeks.
Now, this is where the karma kicked in.
Because after doing this good (and possibly foolish) deed, on my way to that luxury candy store with super expensive candy, I ran upon a super cute asian girl I gave my number to a few months ago. I think it was in like october or september she got it?
I never heard from her after giving her my number, so I was still nervous she would look down on me and find me annoying. That didn't happen. Instead she started shining up and talking to me. That made me happy.
And I haven't really met her since then. It's like 4 months ago or so...
I have been thinking of visiting her on the restaurant she works at ever since she got my number, but I was unsure if she was offended by getting my number. I didn't want to push her. Now I know she wasn't.
A person who used to be my best friend has harassed me for 3 years straight and treated me like shit so I am super nervous about getting to know new people. I am afraid they will also treat me bad, because of her and her mom (who totally has harassed me like hell too).
Either way, the whole point of this post is:
If I had never helped that poor immigrant out, I would have arrived at the candy store a lot earlier. And I would have missed meeting this asian girl I like a lot.
I think it was just pure luck, because I don't believe in fate.
But it was still cool that I got rewarded instead of punished for once for doing something. Even if it was just luck :P
I am still in a pickle though.
I really like this asian girl. She is humorous and we get along really well when I talk with her. We have different opinions on stuff but the person chemistry is good and we laugh a lot together!
On the other hand, I have this american streamer I've grown attached to as well and I've moved her a lot with some nice things I've done for her over the months. Last time on valentine's day.
So I am split in two.
Should I long for the asian girl who literally lives across the street (no, she really does. Like a few hundred meters away) ?
Or...
Should I keep swooning over this gamerchick in the US?
Life is never easy.
However, what I do know is that I am gonna pay my Australia-moving friend a visit now. She is gonna get her farewell gift from me.
In case I don't see her again before she moves. She will only move away for like a year or so, but still.
It will feel a bit empty without her, even if we haven't been hanging out a lot the last 6-7 months...
